Thursday, May 20, 2010

If you realized how often people think about you, you wouldn't worry about it as much

I'm a worrier and a stresser. I stress and worry about money, I stress and worry about my weight. I stress right before I have to go weigh in, and I stress after, when I didn't lose weight. I stress about not having a job, and about the fact that the few part time jobs I have keep me from the housework that needs to be done. Believe me, it's tough to stress and worry!

One of the biggest things I stress out over though, is this blog, believe it or not. I worry that I don't have anything to say, I worry I'm not posting enough, I worry I'm posting too much of one thing! More than anything though, I stress about "marketing a product". I'm serious.

Once upon a time, when blogging was new, there were simply online journals that only your friends read and no one really cared about what you said, but it was nice to keep up with your friends. I had a Xanga account for that very reason. It's different now. I'm a member of Blog Frog, but I find the whole site so overwhelming that I often don't go on there. Not that there is anything wrong with it, I do notice that there are a lot of people who know each other, and there can be interesting discussions and good advice out there. But maybe it's just not for me. Maybe blogging isn't for me, either, because I notice a lot of people who are "building a product", attempting to get readers, commenters, advertisers. I worry that I'm not doing well enough, that I'm not doing just that with my blog. Then I wonder how I'm supposed to build a product on a site full of mothers and women trying to get pregnant, and realize I may be way out of my league here.

Then I remember something. Blogging isn't about the money, for me. It isn't about the fame, or even the comments. It is about having a place for me to write, to get my feelings out, to exercise a creative side that I don't have an outlet for, at the moment. I blog for me, and for no other reason. Anything else just happens to be a fringe benefit.

Why do you blog?

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